Abigale Apricot Neen

2010-01-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

I've shifted to HERE! relink please!!

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2010-01-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

yet another sleepless night, lying there staring into blank space.

finding someone to talk to, but decided not to.

the person i chose to talk to doesnt care, whatever.

i'm going insane.

help! :(

2010-01-21T08:56:00.002+08:00

i'm tired in class.

so blahed out. sleepy. last night couldnt sleep at all:(

this sat will be super super packed. alot of things lined up for me. which made me miss sooooo many other things that i cant attend:(

this is soooo depressing can. depressing. depressing. depressing. i am contemplating about something else. this aint good at all. like seriously. things are not working the way i want it to be.

okay. i'm too lazy to blog.

byebye

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i've waited for 365 days.

2010-01-18T17:03:00.004+08:00

Dramadramaandmoredrama.
i'm soooooo not looking forward to school tmr. arghs. so annoying. :(
cognitive faci not coming to school, and i'm going to atsunrice to check out the school and stuffs. i'm still deciding if i should go to clarke quay now. i cant decide la. but most prob no, maybe soon, but not today i guess, i'm too flakey, very worn out and tired.

try sleeping at 2.30(not i chose to, i tried to sleep @1030, but couldnt fall asleep), and wake up at 5.30. you'll die, i promise.

i got a shock this morning, maybe a bad one, maybe a good one. idk. i cant decide.

okays. i'm skyping with krissy now. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

blog again soon! byebye!(L)

LOOK AT THE BACKGROUND. OMGOMGOMG.

i'm at k's house now, looking at pictures. we found flavvy's piccy in someone elses picture. IT IS HILARIOUS. ESP THE FACE. go look at it! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

flavvy gonna kill me soon. :D

i'm so blahed out about school that i no longer really care about anything. oops. but too bad.

k is freaking out, i'm calm and laughing at something else.

okays, i'm off to bed. goodnight everyone, till we meet again!:D

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find my way back into love

2010-01-17T10:43:00.003+08:00

Kinda moodswingy lately. :( idk why.

i do not like school anymore. i'm serious, i've totally like lost interest into going to school and stuffs, and i'm trying all sorts of ways to skip school if i can. i cant say what happenned here, come ask me, maybe i'll tell you.

anyways, i'm confirmed going to leave RP, many people asked me not to, many people scolded me, but i'm going ahead to do what i like. so just accept it and move on.

past few days, i've been out with krissy, staying home, slacking, and planning my work.kinda busy. taking time off for myself.k kept asking me to blog. but i'm sooo lazy.

thanks to her, i'm obsessed with CW. omg.

DW is like so swoon worthy. omg. meltzxzx. always meltzxzx. never fails.

next tuesday, alot of things are going to happen, i have my little talk with my prog chair. then gg to atsunrice to check it out.

i just sent in my order for my wallet and bag!:D:D wheeeeee. happyhappy. i hope it comes in by CNY. now i'm rethinking if i should not buy. hmmm. and it is annoying that the seller has not contacted me. :(

prawning was kinda suckky, prawns HATE ME. :(:( depressed. VERY DEPRESSED!:(

k kept saying stuffs, which i totally do not agree.

i'm worn out, i'm tired, i'm annoyed, i'm pissed, i'm sleepy, i'm hungry, i'm angry, i'm happy, i'm sad, i'm hyper, i'm going to sleep.

goodnight bees and honey.

i dislike someone(related to me) who is damn freaking annoying which loves to put me down, who is simply annoying. she thinks my o levels are bad, she thinks getting into a private school sucks, she says that if she could get into a poly, she would be damn happy. (contradicting) com'on la. she thinks she is damn freaking great, annoying.
her o level results are like crap-
who the hell fails english, and wants to get into mass comm?
who didnt even study?
who was the one who cant even get into ANY poly?
who is the one who is wasting money and going to different schools?
who is the one spending away all daddy's money and wasting her life?
who is the one who thinks she is so great when she is still studying at 22 and claims she can earn big bucks?
who is the one who says that private is not good when SHE HERSELF is in one?
who does she think she is when she can put someone down?
who the hell is the one that is just asking for money all the time?
who is the fat one who calls me a fatass?
who is the one who doesnt even help out at home?
com'on man. i hope you read this, GO COMPLAIN. i dont give a damn shit.
you think you're so great. like com'on la.
PUTTING PEOPLE DOWN IS NOT THE WAY TO PUSH YOURSELF UP B*ATCH.

2010-01-17T00:06:00.001+08:00

i'm annoyed, i'm sad, i'm depressed.

dont talk to me.♥

2010-01-15T09:56:00.002+08:00

omgggg. i'm so in the mood of i dont wanna study. SAVE MEEEEE.

dad is like nagging at me about me ponning school intentionally and unintentionally.

i'm like so blahed out about school now. maybe it is a little too mundane for me. i called up atsunrice yesterday. and i'm determined to go there, however, i might need to work on weekends. which is like not good.means school eaten up my weekends. :(

i want juicy charms:( i saw on ebay, but then i cant use daddy's cc, or he will KILL ME. but sooooo pretty:( so upset now. i want to buy it!:(

okay, i sound like a freaking spoit brat now. HAHA, NOT ONE. so boring laaaaaaa.

back to lessons! byeeeeeeeeee!! ♥

breakout!:(

2010-01-14T15:10:00.003+08:00

i've been attempting to blog for the past few days, but failed. because i was wayyyyy too obsessed over cafe world. thanks to k, who now has quit it.

YES PEOPLE, CALL ME INSANE AGAIN.

i'm applying for atsunrice.

wish me all the best.

3 interviews. ahhhh. but i have faith that i'll do well!:D

i've having a major breakout. :( stupid stress and friend. i'm been stressing over my sch project for days. and no one seems to reply me. terrible.

i've been skipping school. quite alot. because i am kinda tired recently. very worn out. :( and stressed. i hope i can like quit school now. i'm waiting for skin to clear up, then i'll go for my interview.

i'm trying really hard to get my letter of recommendation:(

i cooked dinner tonight. it was yummy:D daddy loved it.

i've been spending much time with k and ly. wheeee(L) gonna miss her when she's gone.

okay. i'mma go continue with my school work.

byeeeeeeee!(L)

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Dreams

2010-01-11T19:22:00.002+08:00

OMG. i forgot to being my phone to school today, felt super lost without it. :(

this morning, i was otw to school, my usual route. then i was thinking of doing my usual routine, so i started to search for my phone, then i realised i forgot to bring it. part of me soo wanted to stay and do my usual routine, however, the other half made me leave for school instead. so i gave in and went to school instead.

was super shagged today. i need to go shopping for my new year stuffs. arghs. yet to do it. and i'm running low on shampoo and make up. when can daddy bring me out and buy it for meee?

FA UT was horrible:(:( i got a feeling i'mma fail it! depressing or what:(

baosheng called daddy. it was hilarious, because in the car, daddy asked me who was the one who said 'uncle, ni de nu er zhao ni' he laughed at BS and his plan on kidnapping me. HAHAHHA.

ahhhhhhh, wtvr. i just bought another 4 more dresses online. freak me. :(

okays. i'mma go pack my bed a little, full of nonsense.

byeeeeeeee!!

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flutters.

2010-01-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

got woken up at 9 by shinn, then i went back to sleep and woke at 11.

showered, prepared and went to bishan to meet him.

studied a little, i went a little insane, and my comp batt kinda died on me:(

i had chicken rice for lunch, it was kinda yummy. :D

then had bubbleteaaa!!!

hung ard, i read LBD while he did his work, cant believe he reads astroboy.

k came after,i was writing my blog, but i cant scan it because sissy took the scanner away. >:(

went downt o get magazines, but he didnt want to finish his work, so we went to have dinner.

k had the beefball thing, shinn has his usual chicken, i had some weirdo homemade noodles thingy. yum. then yinngy came, we chatted, gossiped, laughed. really hard at bishan gay. ( who looks like N, according to S)AHHAHAHA.

then i went to get my photoprinter thingy, hung ard, then left for home.

dad bought a new cammy for himself. :( not for me. arghs. so annoying.

i hope i get my award, so i can buy my endless list of things
1)A light lappy.
2)ipodotuch
3)blackberry
4)Macbook pro
5)moremoremore shoes
6)moremoremore dresses
7) nice cute furniture.
and the list goes on.

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i hate the goodbyes.

2010-01-10T01:38:00.002+08:00

woke up late, went to church and met shinn. he looks like a sec2 kid. cuteeeee. then everyone came down, and i bought curly fries, yummy. then after that, went to mrt to meet shini, mel. went up to church, good seats, pst Joakim is FAB:D

after service, hung ard, talked, ate kuaychap stall, got annoyed by nicholas.:( then went up to church. saw this unknown bag on the floor, found out it is linus's. his bag has alot of nonsense.

went down with jerome and flavvy to get food. then ping came:D:D went up to church and watched the ending of how to lose a guy in 10 days. talked to some people, talked about some people, then we left for srgn.(we includes, shinn, flavvy, nictan, ping and me.)

went to carrotcake stall( i know it makes no sense) then had my teh peng. and carrotcake. the toilet there is GROSS. ew. hung ard a little more, then they all left, me and k went to kampong park. it was scaryyy there. we saw a rat and i thought i was hallucinating. BUT WE HEARD IT SQUEAKKKK. ew. we screammed. then we walked to my area.

laughed otw there. ping is super paranoid. and she was upset about ___ and i was depressed over not ___ a ______. and i'm not allowed until she leaves. :(

then her dad came to pick her up and i came home:)

Love♥

P is the new P.

2010-01-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

Went to school, left school at 1115. cabbed down to NP to meet jerome&melvin. had lunch at makan place, met flavvy & alim, went to walk ard to gather info for the courses he/me wants.

saw Giant guy(the one i was talking about in sept?,(OMGOMGOMGOMG.) i cant believe i seen him there. eye contact all the way. but no number gotten though. wtvr, i promise when i see him the next time i will ask. saw

this guy with hot pink heels. (bows down). powerrrr!

after that, jerome and melvin left, we went to SP, i went to meet ying, walked ard, saw elwyn lookalike. then we trained down to bugis(me, ly) alim missed his stop. HE CAN DANCE. OMG. flavvy went to church.

ying and me went to get FOOD. yummy. i had my fishcake, she had meesua and also the toriQ thingy. then we walked over to ST place. it is kinda nice there. Brice, ChingHao and Jessica were there. hung ard till like 6 plus, then trained to DG.

wanted to have astons, but failed badly, because of the longgggggg queue. so had billy bombers. milkshake=yummy. thats all i had, no appetite to eat at all. even until now:( then we went to ps to walk ard, window shopped a little, tried to find stuffs for brice, then went home, k and i hung ard at the void deck, then after then she left, i went home.

Brice thinks k is the P, i'm the G! wheeeeeee. :D

lols. it is fun to gossip with someone whom dont know your identity, but you use your real name. then talk about someone whom she also knows, then critique some other person. dont ask me how i got her blog. hahaha. but it is really funfunfun. :D

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2010-01-08T13:42:00.000+08:00

Abigale is retarded!

Hate♥

Bang your head

2010-01-07T07:54:00.002+08:00

i feel like cutting myself away from the internet, which is like impossible because i have to use it almost everyday.i keep finding stuffs i should not be finding out. esp peoples' blogs.

i've been reading this girl's blog.and coincidentally, she knows _. and she thinks he is cute. and obviously, like all other girls that i know, she is in love with him. why is this so? scary uh, i'm trying to cut away all the nonsense, then it pops up on someone's blog unexpectedly. amazing or shit? to me this is shit la. seriously, it isnt working out very well. maybe i just need to end this once and for all, and you know how?

BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL,
BANG 3 MORE TIMES,
BANG ANOTHER 3 MORE TIMES,
BANG ANOTHER 3 MORE TIMES,
AND VIOLA!
i suffer a concussion, go to the hospital, doctor will announce that i lost my memory, and i forget everything.
well done me.

yesyesyes, i'm insane. and dont worry, only when i reach a dead end, then i'll do that. however i dont think i'll suffer a concussion, but instead, i might die, which inturn might be good for some people as they hatehate me and want me to die, and good for me, which i might/mightnot go to heaven and i need to explain to God why i killed myself. which trying to cut off from someone is not such a good reason to die. makes no sense huh.

at times like this,when i'm so damn freaking bored in class, and thinking about nonsense, looking at cute guys out of my class' glass panel, i have to crap to kill time. remember the giant guy i was telling you about? he is weird. idk the good weird or bad weird. ahhhhhhh, wtvr.

my faci just came into class. 15mins early. cant believe it. omg. i'm so damn freaking sleepy, slept at like 1am last night. before i went to bed, i was like thinking about what would happen if my lappy crashed on me today. and guess what? it crashed on me this morning, making me freak out like insane. but after restarting it, it came back alive. Thank God.

there is like MATH UT later and i have yet to study. badbadbad. so not good at all. because if i fail this, i can prepare to die a horrible death. oh btw, just a little update on what i'mma intending to do.

i'm applying for TP culinary and catering. via DAE. however, i will finish my semester in RP 1st.If i get the course, then i'll decide again if i want to accept the offer, if i dont, i'll either stick with RP or go and find a private school to study in. dont comment or whatsoever, i've enough of all the commenting.

anyways, i have no idea who reads my blog, but i know there are at least 15 different people who read my blog daily. ah wtvr, see this or not, i dont really care. hahha. okays, i'm off back to school work and class.

toodles.

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reflections 2009

2010-01-06T14:24:00.003+08:00

at home, lying on the bed, slacking.

so bored. so bored. so bored.

i was just randomly looking at my other blog(the old one. dont bother looking for it, it is locked). then i was reading last year's new year post.

i realised how much i've changed. i can say, i changed alot. and someone made me stronger.

the whole of 2009, i was pondering, wondering how to get him back. until i got slapped by a hard rock, that he is not meant to be mine. yes, i do miss him, but i no longer love him. even though there are times when i feel lost, i tend to go back to the memories, but i realised, it cant be relived.

live on with the memories, not the past. -ianiie.

2009 wasnt a really good year for me, i had to step out of my comfort zone and move into poly, which worked out fine, then became really bad.

i made new friends, i lost some friends, and i made some enemies.

i'm happy with the new friends i made, i'm upset with some of the friends i lost,(not all, because some of them are not worthy to be upset of) and kinda shocked with my enemies.

i'm quite glad with the friends i have, that pulled me through, lifted me up when i needed someone. they are (L)ed.

there are times when i just needed a simple hug, just words of encouragements, and not people pulling me down. thats when they come in. if you know me, i hate comparision. i hate people to compare me to others. because when people compare, they tend to pull people down.

i have loads of things to tell to everyone. but i cant type it all here, because some of it is very private.

i need to connect back with people i've lost touch with like vikash singh jackson!! i've not been contacting alot of people, and i feel really bad because you did so much for me in the past, and now, i just cut off contact from you:(

so if i tag you, it is either i've lost contact with you and want to reconnect with you, or that:

i (L) you!:D thanks for being there for me, thanks for tolerating all my shit and nonsense, thanks for all the memories you gave and awaiting the notyet created memories. thank you for all the little things you've done for me, thank you for tahaning my weirdness and childishness, also, thank you for being my friends and listening to me rant non stop. you guys rock!

ups and downs in 2009 certaintly did pull me up, or tear me down. but i'm still who i am. i know there are some people who hatehatehate me to the core. i cant do anything about that can i? many things have happenned. and i've learnt something.

Learn to appreciate what they currently have-Julian

i'll take 2009 as a lesson learnt in life.

2010 is a brand new start. going to learn from my mistakes, going to lead my life, making new choices. this year, i'm going to have a brand new me. someone you never would expect me to be. no longer the old aby, welcome the new one.

FOR PLANNING FOR THE FUTURE IS WORTH IT.

because in the end, you're the one living your life.

do things for your own sake, not for anyone else, because once he/she is gone. you no longer have motivation to carry on. -Justin Lun

besides the fact that k is going to leave soon:(

it's obvious that she is my little ping. and without ping, there cant be pong. i'm going to miss her like crazy, and i dont want her to leave. but i cant do anything. times spent together were insane and crazy. irreplaceable. things we done together, things we made, things that happened. all the laughter, chicken rice and outings, the memories just increases indefinitely. i'll promise that i will never ever forget her. and the promise of going into a sexshop when we hit 21. (dont you dare forget that). all the pinky swears, all the little promises and plans. times we had together, ever since like sec 2, is fabfabfab. i'm gonna be soo sad when you leave, and just a random sidenote(seacow just came online). i'm gonna miss you like how _ misses you. and like how a snail misses its shell.

♥

people aint the same anymore.

2010-01-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

School was blah.
in the process of wondering if i sld transfer to Tp, have been doing my research. and it is good la. however, there are still contradictions.

after school, went to meet K @ potong pasir. proud of her to take a bus herself to somewhere she has never been. then trained to boonkeng. i went to my childhood place(L). bookstore to get my stuffs, then went to mrt to wait for royyyyyy. roy's near is very far.

took piccys, tried to do my work, epic fail. k kept taking piccys of me. then roy came. (like finally) went to maccys, k went to toliet, i tried to dl my file. FAILED AGAIN!:( then we went to have boontongkee as we were HUNGRYYYYYY. Roy ate super little, 1 bowl of rice. me and k had 2 bowls each!!;D yum. i realised roy is like me, keep dropping foooood.

then JH called and said he reached. so i asked him to run across the road. then he was like, got so many cars, how to run. i burst out laughing. he came over and he didnt want to eat. tsk.

went back to srgn and hung, roy left for the clinic, they came to my void deck and hung. took piccys then yinggy came!:D hung awhile more, the jh left, the both girls left, so i went homeeeee! talked to dad. did a little work.

from a guy: my shirt is too thin, you can see my nipples through it.

Love♥

sleepy. yawning

2010-01-04T08:00:00.003+08:00

i've been having a fab weekend. when i say fab, i really mean fab!:D:D

i've been too lazy to do my new year post and thus, i decided that i might do it later when i'm like super bored and have nothing to do.

friday night:

was initially doing my work. then while chatting to S and F on the phone. i closed EVERYTHING. and i didnt manage to get back any info:( so i decided to just leave the house and go meet them. at 1am in the morning. OMGZXZXXZ. at AMK again! slacked @macs then walked to amkpark for some chilling out. it's really nice there. hung till about 3am. then cabbed home.

saturday:

woke up at 1230pm, then went to shower and prepared for church. left for church, saw JR at the busstop. he has become soooooo scary. omg. church was great. eccl 2:20. my verse for this year. gladys tweet made everyone look at me. YES I WORE YELLOW PANTS. after that, hung ard for awhile with the ceg, then trained to bishan to meet k and ly. ly bought popcorn. yummy. i had my bakchormee. the weirdo blondie kept staring at us. then we hung ard bishan, sat at coffeebean, AND SAW A CHICHAK(idk if that is how you spell it) . so ying rannnnnnnnnn.

slacked at the busstop, and saw cute cap guy. after he left, we saw a blue shirt guy. i kept staring and staring. then ying ask me to look closer. IT WAS GINOOOOOOOO. supersuper long never see him already. more than a year.cuteeeeeeeeeee. hung ard a little more, then left for home. k and i hung ard my house slide. took piccys, talked about people, and did funny stuffs. then at like 11plus, we went to hail a cab for k to get home. then i went home, showered and chatted with someone online :D went to bed at 2.

sunday:

woke up at 8 to prepare to go to church. yes, church, 1st time in my life, i wake at 8am on a sunday for church. we go to the church is only to see ROY:D. him the altarboy. cuteeee. i called k at like 8.45am to only know that she was still asleep, and her SHIT was hilarious. besides the fact that he kept yawning, and didnt even notice us.. the priest refused to give me the bread until i said amen. -.- and R didnt even notice that. apparently he was very tired. hahaha. after the whole thingy, we went to the canteen. to realize k didnt bring her wallet. roy went to find us after he changed. and we initally wanted to eat katong laksa.but they didnt have what we wanted, so had yakun instead. not as good as i thought it would be.

then R went home and we went to ying's house. did crazy stuffs, postits, crazy piccy taking, singapore ghost stories, talking, laughing, banging my head against the pole, banging my leg against the pole, calling people up, texting people. for all the piccys. go to krissy's blog. :D

♥

2010-01-03T20:52:00.001+08:00

i promise a long post tmr morning.

but for now. i'm irritated by the fact i have school tmr morning and dad has set a rule of lights out @10pm on school nights(nights when i have school the next day) which only leaves me for friday night and saturday night that i can hangout late till weeeee hours and not get scolded.

♥

2010-01-02T14:58:00.002+08:00

hello humans. there is something wrong with my internet. dont ask me what. i have no idea either. it all happened after yesterday. danggggggg. i'll blog tonight about what i wanna achieve by the end of this year, reflect back on 09' and think about what i need to do for this year. i got tons of work undone, which you can say that i'm DEAD. or died. wtvr. i'm just like blahblahblah. i want to change school, but still deciding. seriously, dont ask me why, i think i've changed within this short span of my 3 weeks holidays. when i say change i'm not talking about smll little changes, but HUGEHUGE changes. i've changed the way i look at life. tons. i'll blog more later when i get home or smth.
till then, dont miss me♥

new year, new me. i hope

2010-01-01T12:36:00.003+08:00

yesterday, met k at the playground. then we went to the mrt to wait for ying and siblings. epic picture taking failed. scared the indian couple. hilarious. saw some pink shirt guy we know but dont know the name. ying and siblings came. we went to ACM. walked there from clakequay. as we walked, we tried to spot people, laughed at boys. got there and got free coke. wanted to kiss k for an adam lambert CD, but we were too slow. :(

so we left, spotted people PDA-ing. walked ard city hall, nice, then supersuper crowded. both k and me was sooooo worried about people groping us.eww. walked for like an hour, then decided to go to amk hub. hailed a cab, no one wanted to take 5 people. so we walked to the busstop and took a bus instead. liyong is super hyper. she ran across the road. omg. then we took a train from cityhall to amkhub.

met daniel there. then which then we realised that we couldnt do anything. so we wanted to k, we walked to amkhub, went up to the lift place. then they bought hotdogs. gosh. both siblings eat sooooo much. and we spend newyear countdown queuing for hotdogs.

then we walked to K, saw qy on the way. k was freaking 38++ bucks per person. omg. it's insane pleaseeeee. so we wanted to pool, idk what happenned to that idea. wanted to go to ying's house for a party, but didnt, because we were cheated by saying that there is no electricity. which is totally untrue. where there are only NO LIGHTS. omg. but we went over to bishan to meet with B and CH.

liyong went insane in the train. omg. she got hyper until cannot hyper already. then went to macs to meet b and ch and some other people idk their names. hung out, chatted, lauughed. then ying had to leave:( so went to spam piccys 1st then they left.

me and k went to walk ard bishan, in hope to find someone but failed. hung ard a voiddeck and got screened by the police. dangggggg. saw HT there as well. the whole day i saw lots of people i knew, but dont know know them, just know them. so i didnt wave or whatsoever. then we decided to leave because the police said that bishan aint safe. omg. i didnt know that.

we trained back to serangoon and lie on the slides that i love to lie on. looked at the skies, laughed, talked texted. until zy and jh came. they are hilarious. zy hair is niceeeeee. makes him look chubby like last time. then they left. i sent k off and i went home. did some work before i slept. then woke up.

now for bbq lunch! wheeeeeeeee.

♥

2009-12-31T01:15:00.004+08:00

saya mengingati saat kita berpegangan tangan untuk pertama kalinya saya ingat ciuman pertama kami. saya ingat bagaimana saya jatuh cinta dengan kamu tetapi kini ia telah berakhir. tetapi saya masih mencintai kamu. dengan perasaan yang bercampur aduk, saya mengucapkan selamat tinggal.

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when it all fades

2009-12-30T15:06:00.003+08:00

i got loads to do. when i say loads, i really mean loads.i'm seriously going insane. i still dont have much plans for tmr. because of some freaking retarded reason. not telling you.

i realised i have alot of friends whose name starts with J. check my phonebook. it has the most names starting with J. not kidding. and someone whose name starts with J just signed in. -.-

i'm so damn freaking sleepy. and i keep thinking of something. dang. everyday is going to be a torture for me now. :( i dont like it.

and i'm still contemplating if i should change course. it is driving me insane.

i need more ideas. spam me with ideas pleaseeeeeeeee.

i feel like going out tonight. who's up for it. text me. or msn me? i'll gladly go out with you, because i need to get my mind off things.

i'm looking forward to dinner because there are yummy food tonight. and i hope nothing ruins my mood at all. :(

♥

now it's time. the time when everything looks like it has fallen into place, on the surface.but in actual fact, everything is just hidden beneath. it looks like requirements met, it looks like everything is all calm. but in actual fact, everything is raging. erupting. scary? not. because i've been through more than that. one day, this rubberband will snap. it breaks, everything comes out. watch out.

1 year

2009-12-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday was spent with ly and k.

went to meet k for lunch @sakae. then went to Marinasq to buy her chapstick. went shoe shopping. bought a pair of wedges and also a bag for newyear. only yet to buy my clothes. after that, yinggy came and we went to yoshi for lunch, well she ate, we drank. then watsons to get her stuff. marymount aftermath. went to gary's house. met cool, cute, funny hilarious people. the got home because of retarded dinner. 'sulks' went home, got freaking scolded for wanting to go back to gary's house:( came back from dinner then webcammed with J. watched my 10thingsihateaboutyou. then went to bed.

woke at 11 morning. prepared to go out. thought meeting time was at 1.30pm, so reached late. it was supposed to be 1. met this new guy called daniel. they had mosburger, then we went to check for tickets. no avatar 3d, so watched sherlock holmes instead. it was a gooooood movie. like it. besides daniel kept commenting. after that, hung ard bishan, then went to amk to pool. they had dinner at s11, but had no mood to eat, pool was fun, kept poking people. then all left except me, s, n and d. we went to some coffeeshop and ate. not as good as i expected.then left for home. n took a bus home, s walked me and d to the train station. then left for home. talked to d until my train came.and home sweet home.

super tired. shall not use shagged. and i'm trying to think happy thoughts:(

♥

shocked.

2009-12-27T17:44:00.004+08:00

trying to plan a party for K. and i found a hilarious site. HAHAHA. stayed at home the whole day today. plans was supposed to go out with k, but failed. no movies available. i want to watch avatar 3D. having curry and fried rice for dinner. i'm freaking sleepy and want to sleep soon. might go to some party tmr. no idea what is it all about. my freaking movie dl-ing thingy is down. so i cant watch any movies:( suckky. church was great yesterday. got a whole new revelation. glad i didnt miss it. kfc pepper thingy burns. jason has a weird stupid lame joke. -.- really really lame. go ask him about it. saw someone i didnt want to see. hit f like crazy. then left for home.

i'm still in shock. idk how to react. idk what is happening. this is scaring me real badly. i hope this is not like what happened in the past. i dont like this feeling. explain to me what happened. i need an explanation. i need to know what's going on.

2009-12-27T02:21:00.003+08:00

2 more days. bad? good? idk. :( i hope everything goes out fine. i hope i dont think of you. at all. this sucks max. i dont know how to explain what i'm feeling now. i lovehate you. when i saw you, it broke me, i went into hysterics, i didnt know how to react. you dont understand this. i'm crazy, doing crazy things just to move on. cant you see? it's all self explanatory.

That 1st phone call.

2009-12-25T01:27:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NOEL ANT.(L)

omg. i miss you soooooo much.

and i'm going to kidnap you soon. :D

enjoy your birthday babe.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE♥

now i regret doing what i did. christmas is just going to be just another day, just another memory i can hold on to. if i tell you i'm over you, i'm lying. i'm trying to be. letting go aint an option. it is a choice. i'm missing you badly. but aint gonna do anything about it. you're no longer an option.

too bad J is out of town. if not he can drink with me. dont ask me why, i kinda miss him already:(

maybe it's because he can tahan my bitching.

p.s dont anyhow fill in names with Js.

aint it nice to have someone care for you?

2009-12-24T10:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY K!!:D

i hope you get a boyfriend soon, you know __. *hinthint*

amazing knowing you. (L)

have a great birthday!!!:D

furni came in last night. packed up my room, did up stuffs, cleared alot of rubbish. now my room is kinda neat. but there is an irritating shelf i need to clear out. watched mean girls all over. it is a gooooood movie. love it. chatted with people online, stalked someone (HAHAHA). then went to bed, woke up and packed again. sis bought me stuffs. kinda nice. but i'm still utterly upset over not being able to go shopping:( new year is coming, and i have yet to get my new clothes.SUSHI for dinner tonight. yums. cant wait.

kendrea: fyi. i'm not that little biatch who flirts around. i have no idea who are you, nor who your boyfriend is. oh, and i dont steal people's boyfriends.

's christmas eve. 1 year ever since i fell in love with you.i took a step of deleting you from facebook 1 week ago, now i deleted you from msn. it is big step. but you're out of my life. i've got new people in my life now. i no longer need you.

♥

tired.

2009-12-23T15:03:00.003+08:00

hello, i'm FINALLY back, after 5 days.if you say eating is bliss, the cruise is good, if not, nahs.

because all you do is eat, casino, swim, sleep.and getting sick and not being able to shop is sad.

eating eating and eating.thats all i do. and i have luck at the casino.

dad bought my boyfriend a shirt. and bought me converse shoes. :D

i think phone bill gonna be high, kept texting people.and reception in ship sucks.sometimes can send, sometimes it cant. and the other phone batt died on me. :( luckily i brought the other phone. if not DIE.

i saw someone who looks like zr. daddy agreed. i took a picture of him. zr, go check your email, i sent it. if you wanna see it, ask me on msn.

swimming was kinda sucky and killer, cos it killed my hair. i just revived it. showering at home beats showering there. seriously. i forgot my shampoo and conditioner, so my hair is like grass. :(

i'm thinking of dying my hair. should i?

i'm sooooooo lazy to unpack. will wait for daddy to come home, then shift the furni, wait for the person, then unpack. then pack my room. maybe if daddy does the furni at night, then i'll pack overnight. hope to get it done, so people can come over and stayover.

okays. i'm worn out. blog again when i'm free.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!(L)

i'm super dehydrated

fyi, the boyfriend thing, come ask me, i'll confirm tell you:)

♥

2009-12-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving already. pleaseeeeee text me while i'm away. send me anything. please go get my number from anyone. i'm gonna be soooo bored. i'm so sorry that i wont be able to reply. unless i really love you, then maybe i'll pay to reply you. however if i dont reply, it doesnt mean i dont love you okay? please miss me for this 5 days. because i'mma miss alot of you. my phone will always be with me, so just give me a text. (L).

♥

ending

2009-12-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

i'm thinking. thinking of someone. i'm learning to be strong, i'm learning to move on. things aint going the way i want it to go. bad things are happenning, things are crashing down, i broke a promise i made with myself. i went all out, you never knew what i felt when i did what i was not supposed to. because it made me think of you. memories started flooding in, i wanted to give up. i wanted to end all these shit. people start coming into my life, i feel guilty, because it seems like you've never left. now i'm torturing myself. i want to show you how much i can enjoy life without you. because i know you're not the one i need to rely on. i might miss you, but wtvr. happiness is just a hairflip away. you're getting out. forever. you're going to leave. you never existed. not in my life. and i'll bid a goodbye.

♥

long time since i felt this way

2009-12-18T13:45:00.002+08:00

i'm awake. like finally i slept in till 12. yesterday was a fun day!:D went to ly's house and met k and ly there. ordered arnolds. YUMS. like finally! ly says it is NICE. k doesnt like i that much because there aint much batter. then afterwards, me and k read books and went insane while ying watched her harry potter. then ying had to go for a meeting, so we went home.

then F called me up. met him at vivo. HE WAS LATE. went to charge my phone at 711 1st. then met him, went to meet his friends, and realized something baddddddddd. oops. then we went in to meet BL. then afterwards met J, BL insisted that i know him, and i am known as the girl who keeps hitting BL. -.- went to SJ, had fun there, but the 1st 2 hours was blahh. saw adam!!! :D:D good to see familiar faces. people keep kneeing and elbowing me.

then cabbed over to f's cot. hung till 4 plus, then sent b off and walked home with J. J is hilarious, himbo!

♥

gummybear love.

2009-12-16T16:42:00.003+08:00

i need to pack my room real bad, but until daddy shifts the furniture ard, i cant DO ANYTHING:( it is super messy and dirty, i feel like i'm living in a PIG STY. but i cant wait for everything to be shifted. woohoooo!! 1 more week, 3 more nights to tahan, and i'm off to cruise. halfway through packing. not really working.

i'm cooking dinner tonight. soto. yumyum(L). and grilled prawns. how much more yummy can it get?? muahahahha. i'm spamming movies, sitting on my bed. happy. nail painting after dinner. a little food packing also. and shower time for sneeze. after all that, then i will decide if i wanna go out.

i'm like home aloneeeeeee. no one is home, sis fly off to bangkok, and i'm kinda missing her cooking food for me. oops.

junk food for food corner is all ready. just waiting. grilled prawns are calling out my name. yummy. i promised flav that i'll cook dinner one day for them!:D or maybe supper, since daddy dont really like people in the house.

there are tons of things i promised this holidays and i have to do it. might be out of timeeeeeee:( plans for tmr already. :D

burnt tongue is NOT nice. smiths are YUMMYYYYYY. gummybears are LOVE. candycanes are minty. happyhappy.

♥

got alot to say to you.

2009-12-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

Just a little update(more when i wake up. it is 1am in the morning.)

monday: waffles for breakfast, UT was cool. borrowed books from the library , SSC for dinner.

today: seoul garden@citysq with ly/k, shopping, stalking, trying on clothes @ vivo, trained back, hair cut and cabbed home.

♥

Friends, who are they?

2009-12-14T07:48:00.003+08:00

i suck as a friend. i swear. when i cant be there for my friends whenever and wherever. i hate it when i see them sad, and i cant do anything. i feel super helpless. i hate it when they dont tell me anything, but yet i still see them upset. i hate i try and protect them from the outside, i lose myself. i hate it when they are like me. when i know what exactly they are going through because i went through it. i hate it when i cant tell them what exactly happened because of my pride. it's me. this feeling sucks.

i kept thinking in the train, flashbacks of what happened in the past. it was so scary. memories started to come back. it scared the hell outta me. i cant imagine it happening again. it makes me so scared, so lost. the past has driven me insane. the past left scabs, not scars. people see the surface, they start to judge, when they do not know what goes beneath the skin.

i need a new start, i need to start to love people all over again.

turn my scabs into scars. and make myself a stronger person.

♥

grandma's love

2009-12-13T15:30:00.004+08:00

hello. i'm at home. planning the layout of my room( need a new look). need to talk to daddy about it. plans to pack luggage failed. studied a little, need to study moreeeeeeee. my room is in a HUGE mess, sneeze is getting thinner, no idea why. :(

i think i'm VERY insane. i am starting to love to walk, walkwalkwalkwalkwalk. i can walk for hours. (L). yes i'm crazy. i told i was insane at the very start.

SHIT! wtvr i typed gone into dumps. because of the stupid coding. :(

i'm missing grandma. going to see her later
i (L) mama. ♥

you, make me sick. ew.

2009-12-12T09:47:00.001+08:00

i cant believe my plan to sleep in till 12 failed. woke up at 9.30. lunch was fabbb. fried udon. yummy. i am like half dead. i have yet to pack for the cruise. next sat i'm leaving. :)

next week gonna be a busybusy week. 2 projects on hand. to be due when sch reopens. steamboat, timsum, UT:(. and how the hell can i find time to pack? i got a feeling alot of things are going to happen soon. good or bad. i have no idea.

church later on. then maybe a movie at night. unconfirmed. i have to decide what i want to wear.

this holidays i've got tons to things on.

i need to set aside ALL my weekends.
2 days- 1day to pack my room, 1 day to pack my wardrobe.
2 days- family time.
5 days-cruise
3 days- marketing plan
2 days- business plan
2 days- christmas
1 day- k's birthday
this is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy more time than what i'm given:(
3 weeks. 20 days to be exact.

DIE. i can only pack my room after the cruise, because i'm going on a spreeeeeeeee.

time to revamp my room a little. pack it a little, THROW AWAY ALOT of things. hang up the clothes i usually wear. remove all unwanted clothes. change curtains, do a through cleaning before CNY/NY. and so i have less to clean when CNY comes along.

planning a partyyyyyyyyy, i think most likely in the last week of dec. details will be updated soon.

and i need to go get my makeup and stuffs. running out of them. :(

(considering if i should get a long pretty wig)

♥

2009-12-11T21:26:00.001+08:00

why is it always that i fall so deep. every single time, i just fall right in.

i hate it when i talk to you online and i start to cry.

why? ♥

2009-12-11T07:53:00.003+08:00

i hate it when people compare. idk why the hell they compare for. who doesnt hate comparison. it only pushes one down and lifts the other. the one being pushed down get demoralised, and the lifted one becomes all arrogant and proud. maybe people who compare has never gotten the feeling of getting pushed down. what i'm stating here is a third party comparing you and someone else, and not you comparing yourself to another.

idk if the person i've written this is going to read my blog. but i hope so.

i'm having this mixed up feelings in me. i dont like this.

♥

2009-12-10T12:48:00.003+08:00

i had my lunch, 1st time this whole week.yes, i've been skipping lunches for the past 3 days. i'm on a mission to lose as much weight, then go on the cruise and gain it all back. need breakfast tmr. if not will die.

i realised i'm very dehydrated. i live on 500ml of water everyday. which is like NOT GOOD. because it will lead to water retention. blahs. need more water. where is kristen, she always makes me drink water because she likes it. :D so i need her more. hahhaa. water water water water water.

underdetermineation is a very impt idea because it comes up with 2 different theroies and they start to investigate on these two theories and to prove if it is right or wrong. and we gather more evidences and it allows us to explore more about the particular experiment and come up with a logical conclusion.Light- waves/particles. albert einstine found out that it is both.

without underdetermination, we will still contradict ourselves with waves and particles. ♥

the return of retainers.

2009-12-10T07:42:00.002+08:00

my plans failed last night. i was so freaking tired while waiting for h to send me the files, that i left the comp on WITH MAXIMUM VOLUME. but i didnt even hear anything after countless of conversations and nudges. -.- omg. do i really sleep like a piece of wood?

i'm like super hungry now. but didnt buy food because of my retainers, yes, i'm wearing them again. because my bottom teeth shifted VERY BADLY. and i got freaking scolded by the dentist. argh, after seeing pictures, i'm very tempted to eat steamboat/bbq now. :( but no eating of that till next tuesday. high chance to eat timsum next week. shitshitshit. teeth starting to hurt very badly.i really miss my braces alot:( keeps my teeth straight.

i'm determined to look best for New.Year!:D partayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (L).

i'm severely SHOCKED to get an A for FA. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. shocked to the max. it is weird aint it. i was just asking him how i can get an A for this module and he gave it to me! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. weird.

i'm veryveryveryveryvery sleeply now. and paranoid. LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROY CHEONG.

i dont have a pic of him. LOL.

♥

hated

2009-12-09T09:48:00.004+08:00

[edited at 8pm]

UT was okay. kinda easy!:D after school was an adventure for me! freakyyyyyy. thanks j for calling, if not i would be like supersuper paranoid. (L) got home and daddy was at home, told him alllllll about it. i'm seriously damn lazy to study for Marketing. oops. okay, i wanna go take a short shower, then off to bed, EARLY I KNOW:)

i'm going wash my hands all these nonsense. idk why i make myself like this. and yet in the very end i get blamed. i'm not happy with this. when i know what is going to happen and decided not to do it instead.

Sad, sitting on a chair in class, cold and shivering, with flu. how sucky is that?i'm very sleepy. very very sleepy. :( slept at like 3 last night, kept tossing and turning in bed. couldnt sleep.

i fainted at home last night. i have to go and check for some blood deficiency thing that runs in the family:( if it s a major case, i need to go for blood transfusion!:(

cognitive ut later. sucks,i dont have the 6p, i dont have ANYTHING. but the thing is that, i am not at all anxious. good or bad, hard to decide. coldddddddddddd!!! i'm carving for seoul garden and sakae sushi. fried hotate!!!!! hahaha. yes,i'm thinking of FOOOOOOOOOOOD!

♥

arghs.

2009-12-08T14:47:00.003+08:00

i'm tired and sleepy, and i miss my baby. last night baby crawled onto my bed. hilarious shit. because it scared me. i thought was what siol!

i'm sad. UT1 results suckkkkkkkkkkk:( who in the world get 3cs? :( it slapped me right in the face. how can my results from Bs and As become Cs? :( veryveryveryvery depressing. it only means one thing, i need to study harder for UT2&3. and get my As. this feeling sucks much. i cant believe myself. i need to STUDY. a GPA of 2.8 is NOT enough!!! argh. pissed with it:(
I know some people are gg to bitch about me and rant-this girl get cs still not happy, what she want sial?

i wanna go shopping again!! maybe gg next week with yinggy and k. gonna be fun!(L) btw, seoul garden next tues! yummy.i'm looking forward to gorge during the holidays, because i have time to go and run which also means that i can eat! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. need to train up soon! before i lose my stamina. and daddy bought some cool thingy that is supposed to train abs, cool or what?

i've set wednesday and friday a running day for me. most prob is in the night. because there wont be sun and not much people ard:D tell me you wanna join me!

i want to buy a cammy. besides the one i have. :( i want a pinky one. ♥

alone

2009-12-07T08:26:00.004+08:00

[edited]
UT2 is coming. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!:( looking forward to holidays, not looking forward to exams. and dont ask me why, i'm looking forward to the new year ahead.

the world is driving me insane. i'm going crazyyyyyyy.
nvm, DURIAN TIME \m/

i'm in class now. thinking of someone2, thinking of something, disappointed at someone. quite sad and depressed. this morning was supposed to meet melly to for breakfast. but she couldnt come, so i took my own sweet time to go to school. :D

saw . and . in the bus. damn ._. playboy. ohmygoshmanzxz. playboy playboy. why do they exist?then i know a guy will come and say, playgirl playgirl, why do they exist? there is always a girlside and guyside.

i wanna sleeeeeeep. back to class. goodbye babes!

i got this from ianiie's blog.
super super true can?

Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, means you dont care. If you call him, you're too crazily clingy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.

If you dont love him, he'll try t win you. When you do loves him, he leaves. If you dont fuck him, you're a tease. If you do, you're easy. You tells him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you dont, he says you dont trust him. If you lectures him, you just wants t argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'. If you break a promise, he doesnt trusts you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to.

If you cheats, he expects it t be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. Guys drink t forget about girls, while girls drink t think back about th guy. When guys are in love, they became poor. When girls are in love, they became pretty. Guys can forget, but can't forgive. Meanwhile girls can forgive, but not forgets.

When guys are heartbroken, they try t forget about th girl by going out w another girl. When girls are heartbroken, they try t find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish t be her first love; Girls wish t be his last.

SO, WHAT TH FUCK DOES GUYS WANT FROM US?!

when all else fails

2009-12-06T19:41:00.003+08:00

shopping spree, movies, food.

went to shop today with the whole family, got 3 dresses. wheeeeeeeeeeeee♥, i saw the d.p dress i wanted!! but dont have my size:(:( if not i would have totally got it. but i'm still happyhappy. i was kinda shocked when daddy asked to try on dresses that were realllllly nice. i didnt know he had good taste.

tried on this really heavy sequined dress. horrible. ended up with cuts on my arm. :( pain, tried on many many funny stuffs. laughed at myself. i cant believe i'm stuffing my wardrobe with so many clothes(L). every week i go shopping once, and i've gone twice this week. oops. SAVE MONEY TIME.

did my marketing skeleton. idk if it is okay, need to ask my teammates and also faci. i hope it is okay. just did a short brief one. cant be bothered to do a long one. lOl. tmr got the talk, i dont feel like going, seriously manzx. i wanna go home and studyyyyy.

someone just called my phone. no idea who. trying to find out who is it. it is a house number. i need to do alot of things before dec ends. many many things to do. alot of decisions to make, alot of promises to fulfill, alot of dates to go for. busybusybusy.

i'm very tired. blog again soon when i feel like it.

byeeeeeeeeeeee!

Guilt overwhelming me. i really dont know what to do. i'm very sorry. i know i made a wrong decision in the start, but i know i made a right one now.

2009-12-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry for breaking your heart. i dont know what i can say.

i guess we cant be friends again,

can we?♥

sorry.

2009-12-05T22:02:00.003+08:00

[edited]

this is hilarious, daddy ask me to read mummy's diary. and i laugh until i stomach ache siol.

i think i my diary would be this blog. and my previous blogs. i will never let my husband find this. HAHAHA. daddy knows waltz, he never told me. and mummy said that daddy is handsome the 1st time he met daddy. i am amazed!

didnt blog yesterday. too lazy.
went out with my bahbeeeeeee after school. went to meet her and ayam chicken.ayam chicken is a bodoh la.painted his nails with different different colours.hahaha. chio siol! then he left, painted bahbee's nails.yellowyellow one. yellowyellowdirtyfellow. hung ard, took many photos, then took a bus down to hougang point.

ianiie is an expert in ___ _______. she is sooooooo mean.
otw to the busstop saw NT. lols, shocked to see him there worzx.gossiped with her until hg point. then we went to meet ek, i went to meet daddy and family for dinner. went grocery shopping after that. bought all i needed to get. besides that the ham person wanted to KILL me.
in the middle of the night, sneeze climbed onto my bed and all over my leggggg. scare me siol!!

daddy woke me up at 10 to go to the bank. went to deposit monayee. then went to the other house to collect rent, retarded people wernt at home. total waste of time. -.- got home, showered, prepared and left for toapayoh to meet seller, she got 2 items wrong. then went to meet flea for lunch. ate udon!:D yummy. talked and bused to church.

church was good, even though it seemed weird. after service nictan and jerome cheat my feelings, but they are still (L)ed. went down, then after that bused to srgn with nictan. was supposed to meet _, but didnt. came home after slacking at the corner.

i'm sorry, i had to do this, there is nothing, at all. i guess i was just insecure. i'm sorry if i hurt you, i'm sorry if anything happenned. i'm very sorry. i woke up from this little dream i was having. i'm sorry. i thought that i would be better off with you around, i was wrong, i felt even worse. i'm sorry.
♥

(L)

2009-12-04T08:05:00.003+08:00

it is 8.05am, and there is still NO ONE in class yet.depressing or what? idk i am suay or what, i keep getting attacked by insects that FLY, in the train, in the bus. arghs, driving me insane. and i'm always the only squirming. it seems like i'm the only one who notices it. maybe i'm hallucinating.

weird things have been happening, yesterday nic tan asked me something. and i thought about it. so i asked daddy about it. he told me alot of things, that happened when i was a kid and i dont remember a single thing at all. seriously. :( daddy told me all the things that happenned, all the details and how he got through it. i admire him.

i always wonder this, where do smells go? like after someone sprays perfume, then the smell disappears after. where does it go?i think no one really knows. because we cant see smell, it is intangible.

i'm like damn sleepy now. i wonder who is gg to come to school and who is not. time check:8.13am, NO ONE IS HERE YET. scary aint it. it would be hilarious if faci comes in and only sees me. ._. i feel like sleeping. very much, and where are my classmates??

i cant wait for the holidays. shopping shopping and more shopping! wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!! super fun! manipedis, shopping sprees, massages, cruise, gymming, buffets, (the list goes on and on).

2 more weeks and i'm outta singapore. i hope i wont miss ___.

i know this is a VERY wordy post. hahahaa. i'm trying to learn to blog like that, so that my RJ can also be like that and i'll get my As. I FINALLY GOT AN A FOR MARKETING. :D i need to keep this grades up and i'll get another B+ subject. happy.this is already 300 over words. hahahaha!

9 more mins, no one is in class yet. pathetic. seriously, suddenly today got no class uh, then damn sad sial! no one told me!!! 8 more minutes, yes, i'm counting down! because it is very depressing. maybe i will just get an A and no one comes, then i'll get a SUPER A. lol!

1.37pm

i already ponned like 3 lessons for this sem and i have 7 more days. i'm waiting for someone to come online :( done with problem statement. and slacking now. i'm seriously in a dilemma now. idk what to do. idk who to choose. idk to give up or not. super sleepy. getting my clothes tmr! wheeeeee. more clothes to wear. okays, back to ppt.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

xoxo♥

Lifeless.

2009-12-03T19:35:00.002+08:00

yeah man.(ma-n). i'm lovehating life right now.

i realised i've not been blogging much about my life recently. so let me update you a little.

1- 2 projects on hand now:(
2- sneeze is getting fatter and fatter. but it is still my darling.
3- school is kinda driving me insane.
4- i need to go and workout. all my muscles are turning into FATS.
5- trying to save money for no reason.
6- the urge for cooking is back. (taiwan meesua, carrot cake... the list goes on)
7- daddy has been very good to me (L)
8- love hanging out.
9- i've not been drinking.
10- i need to go and trim my hair!
11- i feel like quitting RP. :(
12- i have yet to start on my packing list and going to the money changer
13- school holidays are fully booked.

yeah, this is about it. stressed up now. i've been bumping into people i've not met for a long long time. i need more clothes BADLY. it's horrible. i'm like severely running out of clothes to wear. arghs. and i wanna watch alot of movies. but i dont have the time to do so.why is my life so packed manzx?

talking about school, i realised that level 6 got alot of ________. SERIOUSLY ALOT. omg manzx. and i've been hallucinating. :( not a good thing. it is BADDDD. it scares me all the time.

its cutting me up inside, know it cuts up like a knife.

2009-12-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

lesser thoughts,

but more indepth.

good or bad? :(

feeling lost.

i feel like leaving.

very badly.

i want to end this misery.

♥

Dreams

2009-12-01T07:53:00.003+08:00

in class, alone, thinking.

today is officially the start of hell for me.

being tortured by my own thoughts.

locked in a chamber full of bees stinging.

when you realize how beautiful it would be outside,

with butterflies fluttering, flowers blooming.

yet you still lock yourself in this chamber,

unwilling to get out.

this is what i call self torture.

i'm crazy, VERY crazy.

i'm going to learn to leave this room,

pry open the door, and walk out.

lock that door and burn the key.

♥

2009-11-30T13:49:00.002+08:00

December 1,

a date to remember. or should i say, forget.

these 2 months, december and january would not be a good 2 months,

not kidding.it's gonna suck big time.

it's gonna be a tough 2 months for me.

exams are coming, things are happenning,

i dont even know if i can hold on that long.

i feel like ending it all.

♥

1 word, 4 letters, love

2009-11-29T21:29:00.001+08:00

there are many kinds of love.

and many ways people can fall in love.

people can just fall in love looking at pictures.

people can fall in love by talking to each other.

people can fall in love by just looking at each other.

people can fall in love at 1st sight.

people can fall in love with no reason.

because you dont need a reason to love.

many people are stuck with the mentality that we need a reason to love.

so not true.

i once before asked grandma,

how come she and grandpa could love each other for so long.

she told me this, you just keep falling in love.

i asked her why she loves grandpa,

she told me, when you love someone, there shouldnt be a reason.

because if there is a reason, once it is gone, the love will be gone.

but if there is no reason,

there wont be a reason to not love that person

it's amazing, i wonder if such love still exists?

♥

2009-11-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

i think there is something seriously wrong with me.

i'm going crazy.

i regretted telling people things.

i've learnt, trust no one, but yourself,

because you'll never know what goes behind backstage.

there is a feeling inside of me,

that you'll soon no longer be my friend.

when it will no longer be easy to talk to you.

i regretted telling you.

i'm tired of running,

i just want to cut myself away from this insane world.

it's driving me crazy,

this is torturing me silently.

when no one knows what you're feeling.

when one day you just break down after so long.

help!

♥

is it me, or have you turned cold?

2009-11-28T11:49:00.002+08:00

last night, i dreamt that the ahlianzx were in 1 country, the guaikias were in another.
i lived in a beautiful pink palace, it was fabbb. very.
dont ask me why, rinnah was also in the dream.
one fine day, trolls, the ahlianzx started to attack us.
it was horrible. Joyce tay was also in the dream.
she was my buddy,
we escaped, so many times, it was hilarious,
esp the part when we were in a lift,
then we realised that alot of ahlianzx lived there.
so an ahpek came into the lift,
we wanted to smash the watermelon on his head.
then we realized that he was a nice guy, not a bad one.
okay, dont ask me why,
we went to a fruit stall to get fruits for attacking,
i got watermelon, joyce got logans.
in the end, me and joyce ran and ran until we passed this whole group of ahlianzx.
we tried walking pass peacefully.
until they saw our fruits.
the trolls started to come out and spray us with fruit juice.
i got woken up after that.

LOL!!

maybe God wants me to eat more fruits.

♥

2009-11-27T20:10:00.003+08:00

1 word, emo.

i'm at grandma's today.

went for timsum lunch today @safra tpy.

yummyness. i am happy i planned this family gathering,

seeing dad and his siblings just talking makes me happy.

after that we went shoppingggg.

dad at 1st didnt want to buy me my jacket,

but after me throwing tantrums,

he bought it (L)

i should stop the tantrums throwing thing.

went to bottle tree to walkwalk, then it suddenly rained,

so we went back to mama house.

love it there, bought food for dinner, yummyness again.

retainers are driving me insane.

teeth has moved, retainers please please please work:(

i'm unhappy with crooked teeth!!

2 tooths moved!!:(:(

sneeze has not been hyper this few days.

worried shitzx. :(

life is so worryful

2009-11-26T19:54:00.002+08:00

running a fever now:(

depressing, everytime J tells me he is sick,

i will also become sick. wth.

i need to boost my immune system!!

left school at 1pm, couldnt tahan anymore.

went home, ate food then slept till 7pm for dinner.

watched 500days of summer.

it was goood!

i'm in a stage where i sometimes just want to be alone,

on my own.

i want to reflect upon my life.

okays, i'mma go back to bed.

goodnights.

♥

2009-11-26T11:53:00.002+08:00

i really dont like this.

:( i hate it. seriously:(

i hate this feeling, alot.:(

i dont want to cry,

they aint me worth crying for.

♥

muacks.

2009-11-25T14:58:00.005+08:00

I HATE BACKSTABBERS.

bored shitzxzxzxx.

it is kinda depressing.

i am seeing things happen,

which i dont like, alot of backstabbing. :(

i'm getting more and more pissed each day.

is backstabbing a survival kit?

and when you dont backstab,

does it mean that everyone hates you?

well, in my case, yes.

i always thought that people hate people who backstab,

but i'm proven wrong.

this leads me to not trusting anyone anymore.

alot of things happenning in my life now,

exciting? not.

severe moodswings, unstable emotions.

seeing someone wasnt my plan.

i once thought that i would be happpier,

but it killed me indirectly.

i'm learning, trying very very hard.

living a life that i should live.

i shall not remember any more dates.

i shall not do any more things,

because of what someone once told me.

' pick yourself up and carry on living.'♥

it woke me up, not like i'm married to him right?

there is bound to be someone better:D

like what ianiie told me.

' it is HIS LOSS not yours.'

i'm really glad to have such friends ♥

i need someone to talk to.i want to cry.i dont want this to be happenning in my life. i hate this, i really do.when i choose to do the right thing, and get left behind. why must this world be so practical? why cant anyone give way to anyone? why is everyone fighting for that position be to the popular kid? why do people leave others out?

thats because they have never once felt like this.

2009-11-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

i saw this from ianiie's blog

very real, applies to me.

There wasn't anything I didn't love about you,
You do some stupid things and I laugh at those too,
And we went together like the summer in June,
But who'd have known that it'd rain so soon.

Thought I'd be the only one that make you smile,
Thought I'd be the only one that'd really know how,
But you showed me different and I know better now,
I gotta get you out of my system somehow.
You damn near were my everything, you're still on my mind,
But I'd rather be here all alone and I'm doing just fine.
Gotta take it back to the days before we met and live our lives as strangers again.

I replay it over and over again
You were my boy, now we 'ain't even friends,
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing,
Now to me your nothing, boy you're nothing, now your nothing.

♥

2009-11-24T08:11:00.002+08:00

i regretted,

it broke me piece by piece.

stood there, unsure of what to do.

confused, lost.

stab in the heart,

loss of words.

running away,hiding.

♥

backstabbers:hated.

2009-11-23T21:39:00.003+08:00

i'm enjoying life like crazyyy.

promise kept by God.

woots, i got a watch from daddy as a birthday pressy.

he knew i wanted one. and he got me one!

♥

i miss mama, i want to meet up with her!!

someone got to make me master my canto before this friday.

have someone in mind already:D

school has been kinda stressful for me,

some people know why, some people dont.

i'm starting to step into a real world,
when i have to start to worry about my finances,
when i have to start to plan my point B in life.
when i have to step into this world of politics,
when i have to step into a place where it is a man eat man world.
when i have to step into this place where people backstab.
when everyone is so practical that no one ever has imaginations ever again.

2009-11-23T08:48:00.003+08:00

hopes dashed,

meaningless awaiting,

hate backstabbing

hot guys hanging,

one last final.

kiss goodbye.

♥

have you loved someone to the extend that you start to resent that person?

have you loved someone so much that you will wait for that person meaninglessly?

have you loved someone that you get upset whenever someone tries to make them upset?

have you loved someone until you would die for them?

i did, and i resent that person now.

i'm moving on, i'm starting afresh,

i'm learning to love again.

maybe i should thank you and then start hating you for making me like this.

2009-11-22T19:25:00.005+08:00

thanks everyone who wished me.

last night was kinda a fab night.

thanks guys.♥

went to rendezvous hotel for lunch with family,

then went shopping,

didnt buy anything.

for those who realized,

i didnt want to make this year's birthday a big thing.

a low key, just with close friend thing.

i cant say that another promise broken.

i'm holding onto hopes for the next 4 1/2 hours.

maybe i should really take what J said.

emoness. shitzxzx.

i'm not touching my phone until tmr morning.

and ianiie. i hearts you.

i'mma be strong and move on.

candyyyyyyyyy

2009-11-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

i had a good and bad day today.

severe moodswings in class.

:( kept thinking and thinking and thinking.

sneeze is an escape artist, it can escape the cage now.

shit.

after school, had candyfloss!

went home to shower because almost my whole body was sticky.

showered and went to meet k, ly, jh, k, zy.

the boys are weirddddddddd. as usual.

had ichiban. yummy. <3

they totally made my day manzx.

afterwards, went to coffeebean.

sat there and chatted then off to ying's house.

k, jh, zy left.

did crazy stuffs at ying's house, wait for k to blog 1st.

they gave me my birthday prezzie which i have no idea what it is,

and i am not allowed to open it till sunday<3

had to leave due to her dad, so me and k walked ard srgn,

ended up opp zhonghua and eating.

forever eating :D

walked and talked, went a little insane.

then decided to go home.

took ghost pictures of k.

then her dad came, and i went home.

♥

2009-11-20T15:18:00.001+08:00

sad

yawnzx

2009-11-19T19:36:00.003+08:00

edited:
someone just told me i am very stubborn.
i feel mentally retarded. okays, i think i'mma go sleep now.
nights!

today is a happy day.

went out with k and ly.

before that, did work at home,

helped the team in math.

went to novenaaaaaa, bought heels, clothes:D

wheeeeeeeeeeee.

had yummy timsum, no more cravings!:D

now i'm currently craving for duck porridge.

so going to eat that tmr.

toes hurt from heels. no idea why also.

alot of funny things happened today!

hahahaha.

i'm going to sleep early tonight,

school, movie, outing, wtvr tmr.

still must dress well. -.-

bought a nice dress. woots.

but not wearing it tmr.

okays, off to teevee. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i am offically pissed with the accounting faci.like wth, i work so hard you say i never work.go to hell la you. ass. give me a C summore.as if it will help me in this.SAI LA YOU. fer.i try so hard to freaking understand, you come and tell me i do nothing.i'm officially going to ignore him.i hate it when the facis look at what the student does in class, and does not even bother about looking at the back scenes.arghs hate him. ferferfer.when i see him on monday, bet you that i will blow up at him.

can we skip sunday and go to monday?

2009-11-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

i'm home, sitting here waiting for mel's reply.

if i dont get the details soon, i will not go.

school today was kinda slackish.

contemplating if i should go to school tmr. :(

i'm in a blah mood now. :(

and i am not looking forward to sunday at all:(

i dont want to lose hope.

♥

friendzone

2009-11-17T19:55:00.002+08:00

today was quite an eventful day.

school, had maccys for lunch.

tempted to have timsum. :D

called people up for timsum this week:D

faci talked to me after school.

told her about my plans.

after school, left for storage, bout some food,

came home to cook.

saw cutie guys with cutie girls in the train.

got really pissed at the maid. she is retarded.

totally ruined my mood.

sat at the table, talked to daddy, complained to him about the maid.

darling is getting me a JC wallet!:D yayness!:D

will only arrive in jan:(

cos that is when she comes back.

i miss her manzxzx, after like 2 years of her not in singapore.

jan! you're officially misssed!!

gymming tmr. :D

♥

http://encyclopediadramatica.com/Friend_Zone

i beg you to stop screwing his mind.

kudos.

2009-11-17T07:52:00.002+08:00

im in class now.

had a hth with daddy just now in the car.

i feel alot for him.

being his child, i feel like i've let him down.

so many things is going on in the family,

i'm afraid one day daddy will crash.

he has been a good husband, a good soninlaw,

a good son, a good brotherinlaw, a good brother and

a good daddy.

i think if anyone else was in his shoes,

they would have left the family already.

there was never a single complain from him,

he stood strong, he moved on.

sometimes eventhough i might say that i hate him,

infact, i love him, only the ones you love can hurt you.

he is someone i look up to.

he always strives to give me the best,

give me as much as he can give to me.

♥

yawnzxzx

2009-11-16T20:03:00.002+08:00

talking to nicky online.

<3>

he is someone i can talk deep stuffs with and someone i can joke with.

glad to have him as a friend.

went to school and saw bridget in class,

she is EARLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

watched where got ghost in class.

i hate images. :(

today's problem was kinda good

cos i understood alot of things.

and ut wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.

came home and had steamboat for dinner.

randomness.

did my rj and i'm waiting for someone to come online

while i think what to reply someone else.

i'm getting fatter each day.

i'mma go exercise all my fats away

wed with ianiie to the gymmmmm!:D

i'm fully booked this whole week.

tmr: casserole for dinner

wednesday; gymming

thur: cg

Friday: dinner with N, maybe some other things.

dad promised me unlimited shopping.

bill gonna explodeeeeeeeeee.

i feel like sleeping.

♥

pinky browny hair:D

2009-11-15T22:03:00.003+08:00

the hairstylist just dyed my hair.

i'm currently waiting for it to be done.

i am kinda dead for FA.

i still dont get a single thing.

helpppppppppp bs.

yesterday spent the whole day trying to study.

totally failed.

cos i dont understand a single thing. -.- blahs.

went to the supermart this morning,

then to church after that for usher.

usher was fun, doing the lift area with earnest.

he is kinda nice:D

was abit spooky there, malay songs were just playing,

no idea from where. yucks.

service was powerrrrrrrrrrrrr.

after that, packed chairs, ate a little noodles,

went to pei melly ma to wait for her dad, had a hth.

then cabbed home.

really tired now.

stressed out. sleepy. blahed.

i still have 3o mins more to go.

sianzxzxx. :(

okays. gonna go watcha show to kill time.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee♥

smile. for it is something worth smiling for

2009-11-14T10:03:00.003+08:00

still couldnt beat my record today.

depressing.

yesterday i was really feeling very down.

i regretted alot of things i've done and i'mm stop doing that. fzfzfzfzfzfzfzfzfzfz!

i'm kinda glad i didnt go partaye last night.

i stayed home, done my things, talked to people.

running a fever, almost died.

waited for ss online to send him stuffs

in the end he went clubbing and didnt come online. -.-

freakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

i just saw something interesting,

http://www.stevenlim.net/PohJunHao.wmv

someone gave me the link.

lols. junhao, it is NOT you.

it is another junhao that i 'know'.

there is FA ut on monday,

and i have yet to study.

arghs. better start later.

staying home to study today. STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

stressed up already.

dang.this gonna SUCK.

found pink crocs in the kitchen, no idea whose.

so smalllll.

but damn cuteee.

watching a walk to remember,

making me emo:(

imy

♥

2009-11-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

i regretted what i've done.

i'm not okay.

i feel guilty.

♥

2009-11-13T07:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to church after school.

hung out, talked to flea, went for TGIT.

then after that, went home.

i really thank God that nothing's gonna change btwn () and me.

went to bed, wokey at like 6, late.

cos i was wayyyyyyyy too tired.

in class at 7.38am.

♥

idk what to do, i'm afraid of so many things. if only you didnt exist in my life, i wouldnt be in this state now. i've been trying and trying. more and more. until i snapped. i cant take it anymore. i dont want to fz anymore. it aint me.

2009-11-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

thank God everything is fine♥

lost hopes.

2009-11-12T08:07:00.005+08:00

i have pictures, but i cant upload them,

cos i'm in school.

SMJ is hilarious, like seriously.

hearts him.

after school, we went to joveis's house then down to westcoastplaza for sakae steamboat.

yum. JH, J and me went there 1st.

we had alot of yummy food, they were super sick

*ahem esp JH.

then ws came along,

chatted, laughed, had fun overall!:D

went to hawker to have dessert(yes they are insane)

then cabbed home aftermath.

did my RJ, talked to people online,

went to bed. couldnt sleep.

woke up at usual this morning.

talked to nic online before leaving the house.

went to yishun to wait for hun to pass her stuffs

got ps by j and jh. -.-

came to class and slept, only to be woken up by bridget.

okays, back to math.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

♥

i tried my besti no longer want to hold on to lost hopes,you told me it wont be the same.you liar, you just got someone else that you love.why cant you just tell that to me? i've been clinging on, i'm going to let go now.what happens to me has nothing to do with you anymore. neither anything that has to with you has anything to do with me. goodbye

i'm seeing a rainbow, when it is still raining.

2009-11-11T08:55:00.003+08:00

i'm currently in class listening to SMJ.

yesterday was kinda blah,

after school was adventure learning.

it was kinda scary, yet fun.

went home, dinner, RJ, chatted with JG.

this morning didnt even hear my alarm ring,

but i still woke up.

prepared, left for sch with daddy,

reached the mrt, got reminded of JG's advice.

so i didnt really wait, only waited for a more empty train which was the next train.

came to class and fell asleep for 45 mins.

got woken up by bridget,

now listening.

♥

2009-11-09T19:38:00.002+08:00

i'm too lazy to do a write up.
so forget it.
did a really dumb thing this morning.
FA was blahs.
UT was okay.
went home after.
got really affected by -.
kept thinking nonstop.♥

Starting a series on love.

2009-11-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

just a short post before i'm off to bed.
usher was fun,
i have a bimbotic guy as a friend.
kurant is nice to drink in shots.
lemon helps you to relieve heat.
you get dehydrated if you keep drinking.
i'm glad to have that bunch of friends who are willing to take care of me.
i just got killed by C cos of MC.
i'm a junkie now;(

all guys claim that they are different, but they all act the same. scary.
in 3 days, i know of 5 breakups.amazing uh. i'm shocked myself.
last night i was just sitting there thinking,
kept thinking and thinking, until i could not stand it,and i started to cry.
why do people take love for granted, i regretting doing so. if i could, i would scream and tell everyone to stop taking love for granted, because once you've lost it, it will be ultra hard to get it back. and even if so, it would have a barrier. because of that fear of having a barrier, people do not want to get back tgh with that person, which makes it even harder. i'll type more about it tmr when i get to school and have nothing to do.
♥

2009-11-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCE 18th BIRTHDAY
♥BRIDGET NG!!!!!!!!!!!
was caught in a traffic jam this morning.
sucks, met jh at jurong, saw my pri sch friend.
trained to school.
got a massive gastric for almost the whole day.
i'm freaking sleepy now.
usher tmr, and i got no tops. unless i wear weiling's.
i'll see.

idk what am i doing. :(idk what to respond, i'm afraid of falling in love once again.
someone once told me, once you fall in love, it is hard to get out of it.it is like a trap, if you're not careful, you get trapped, and it is not that easy to escape,because if it is that easy, it wont be called love.only if i knew what to do.

2009-11-05T20:57:00.003+08:00

no bangkok, people who wanna go bangkok,
lets go after CNY next year okay?
we'll go tgh!:D
cruise was booked tonight. thanks to meeeeeee!:D
UT was kinda HORRIBLE. kinda sucks.
math was kinda easy after you got it.
i'm soooooooo looking forward to so many things now.
wheeeeeeeeeee.
i'm all hyped out now. :D
marketing tmr, SO NOT looking forward to it.
everyone in class hates her. offically.
i am soooooo sorry JH,
i accidentally slapped him today. :(

♥

2009-11-05T13:42:00.000+08:00

mixed feelings,
sadness,
worried,
confused.♥

lil cutie!

2009-11-04T20:30:00.005+08:00

hello.
yesterday was a blah day.
had UT, was okayyyy.
after that was talk, the tuition for FA.
FA sucks:(
went to makan with the 'jian yi qi' friends.
LOL.
went home alone after that.
showered, called cornelius, he exposed me once again:(
then went to bed.
woke up this morning( got dragged out of bed by dad.)
went to school, i like SMJ.
did work, ate, laughed.
super sleepy. after sch went to woodlands lib with jh, he is ANNOYINGGGGGGGGG.
he is such a kid!:D ( i know he will read this)
went to causeway after we failed, saw john, joveis and weisiang there.
joveis went to cut hair. people there are kinda nice.
dad fetched me home aftermath.
i dont feel like studying for marketing UT:(

pictures are up!! woots.
:D

i regretting noticing you 1dec08

2009-11-03T13:03:00.003+08:00

exactly 20 more to birthday.
as it comes closer, the more i'm hating it.
Ut later, and i'm not even prepared.
going to read through 6p later.
i'm going insaneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:(
nicholas is listening to my ranting now. lOl.
i think he'll die of it soon.
this is driving me insane:(
so many what ifs:(
♥

byebyebangkok D;

2009-11-02T19:34:00.002+08:00

i'm really freaking lazy to upload piccys.
i'm starting to love this class i'm in.
even though some dont wanna leave their old class behind.
just like yy said.
today's FA was kinda simple.
towards the end of the day, it was HILARIOUS.
nabilah, me, bridget, elaine was talking about some stuffs.
nd we kept laughing.
JUSTIN BEIBER IS SUPER CUTE!:D
nicholas asked me to consider __. i'm considering. lOl.
after school cabbed to causeway with Jh, J, J.
all Js. trained home with Jh.
got home, tried to physo daddy to going to Bangkok:(
i wanna go there, i was sooo looking forward to it.
dangggggggg. :(:(
i'm freaking tired now.
okays. i'mma sleep early tonight.
:( i better not be getting anymore C's before i commit sucide.
♥

i'm not looking forward to it.

2009-11-01T20:50:00.004+08:00

no more bangkok for me:(
dad dont want to go anymore. he cant be bothered.
i feel like going with my friends.
who is up for it? tell me okay?
21 more days to my birthday.
so not looking forward to it.
i dont want dissapointments after dissapointments.
had enough of that.
i realised something,
the bigger expectation you have,
the bigger the dissapointment you will get
this has always been true, well to me.
i'm kinda down and blahed out.
i'm thinking, should i, should i not?
btw, CNY falls on valentines day itself.

i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand it at all.you promised, you broke it off, you mislead me, you hate me now.i hate myself for that, i hate it each time i try to put myself into danger because of you.i hate it when i have to make myself move on when i clearly dont want to. i hate it each time i'm forced to push you out of my mind, i hate it each time i am supposed to leave you behind.i hate you for making me love you. will you still remember me? i doubt so.
♥

i didnt want to, period.

2009-11-01T15:27:00.002+08:00

i'm VERY sleepy.
today is sunday,
there is school tmr. not looking forward to it.
i seriously cant be bothered to study for my UTs.
i'm too lazy you see.
yesterday was kinda of a fab day.
great night, instant pictures, booze.
will scan and upload when i'm feeling less lazy.
slept at 7am this morning.
wokey at 2.
i am really SLEEPY:(
i'm soo looking forward for UTs to end,
arghs, so not loving it.
lets count, i have 3 uts per sem, i have 5 more sems to go.
which comes up with 15 more UtS.
arghs. hate it.
i cant wait for the day i grad and leave RP.
arghs, but thank God my exams are like short papers,
and not the longlong kind
okays. i'm off to watch my show.
byebye♥

i loved you, (past tense)

2009-10-30T22:24:00.002+08:00

went to book cruise just now,
but fully booked, including the suites, so no cruise for me.
maybe taking the plane.
unconfirmed.:(
i'm a despo for shopping now.
i'm not feeling good these few days.
i wonder if i go overseas on that few days, will my mood get affected.
:( arghs, i hate this feeling.
wtvrrrrrrrrrrr, i need to get over it! someone get me someone.
fever is killing me, but i dont care.
i'm too moodless to bother about it.
another thing is that,
WHY IS IT THAT ALL GUYS FORGET ABOUT THEIR GIRL FRIENDS,
AFTER THEY GET A GIRLFRIEND?
it happenned to V___. so many times :(
he used to be my bestguyfriend .i miss him alot:(
my bitch, but now, he has a girlfriend, cant be bothered to even text me.
i've lost so many of my friends to their gf/bf.
why is it always that the guy i like, likes someone else?
♥

no more cruise for me. FULLY BOOKED!!!:(:(

2009-10-30T17:37:00.003+08:00

how does it feel like to have someone to bother about you?
how does it feel like to have someone to talk to when you're bored?
how does it feel like to have someone to always be there when you need a shoulder to lean on?
how does it feel like to have someone to always lend you a helping hand when you need one?

okays, i'm offically bored.
REALLY BORED.
i'm wayyyyyyy to lazy to do my business plan.
i cant think anymore.
i'm wayyy too lazy to think.
i'm hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy:(:(
♥

i'm offically sick at home:(
UTS start next week.
hate it
i'm kinda glad i didnt go to school.
lols, packed my room a little.
cleared hammy's cage.
i'm off on the 20 of dec, shopping here i come.
and the business plan is NOT done yet. DIE la.
due on tuesday,
maybe i'll do it tonight after dinner when i'm more awake.
i'm like half dead, and i have yet to go to doc,
a little lazyyyy.
i feel like not seeing the doctor and just try to heal myself.
i'm freaking sleepy. shitzxzx, but i cant sleep any longer, any longer,
i might just die in my sleep.
i know there are many dead links in my blog,
i'mma tooooooooo lazy to update them.
oops.
weekends are coming, woots! corne and me have a pact,
and it is CNY today. hahahahahah!! inside joke.
i'mma go search for food.
byebye!!
♥

2009-10-29T07:50:00.002+08:00

wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i'm offically pissed with christina low.
who copies RJ? like HELLOOOO.
copy from where uh? -.-
then give me a freaking C.
my 1st c for the whole of this sem!!
btw, what made my day was that CG from level 6.
sweet. i didnt know he existed.
sneeze is currently beside me.
awwww.cuteeeee!(both)
♥

i'm sleepy

2009-10-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

today was an okay day.
my team's business plan has to be redone.
shitzxzx. :(:(
but i likey my faci. he is nice!:D
sneeze is going to sch tmr.
after sch, went to meet yinggy for dinner:)
she bought stuffs, i didnt.
had korean food for dinner,
then i cabbed home, she went to pianooooo
no more bangkok, cruise again this year.:D
woots!!! i'mma go shoppppppppppping!
kinda comfirmed already!
i wanna go to bed already.
goodnight my friends!
♥

2009-10-28T08:45:00.002+08:00

in class, half asleep.
i feel like sleeping.
hung out till 5 plus 6 in school with Jh, Ws.
then went to amk to meet flav, alex, wl, nicole.
did my RJ, went to J8, cabbed to flav hse, then to prata.
yummy.
went home, changed, took sneeze down,
went home at 11 plus,
showered and went to bed.
woke up, saw 4 missed calls-.-
felt like skipping school.
but i came in the end.
I really feel like SLEEPING
♥

2009-10-27T07:58:00.002+08:00

last night was HOMEALONE:(
how sad was that, apparently someone in my distant relatives died.
and she is SUPER RICH.
so all of them went except me and sneeze.
talked to some people online,
then went to bed.
got really pissed at some people who KEPT calling me.
10 over calls from 10 different people.
walter ng was the last one.
super sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
this morning came to school,
got really pissed off at someone, who tried to humliate me.
wtvr. okies, back to PDT
♥

2009-10-26T12:29:00.003+08:00

school today is stressed,
baby didnt come online today:(
k is leaving tonight for about 3 weeks:(
today is a sadsad day.

i need to catch up with ianiie.
yes biatch, i MISS YOU!:D
i wanna eat dengdeng!

gosh:( i dont want this to happen!:(
♥

2009-10-25T10:27:00.002+08:00

hello world, i just woke up nd i felt like blogging before i forget my dream.
last night, i dreamt that daddy sent me off to malaysia(KL) to live on my own. i was freaked out, because i had no idea what was going on. i still had to go to school(in singapore), i didnt know how to get home from there. the owner of the house was old, the house was old, but the houses beside it was nice and big. i wondered why daddy rented the old one for me. everyday i would miss my bus then freak out on how i would get home, but in the end, i will still find myself home. idk how. it was freaking me out. everymorning, there would be bread placed on the table, with only a piece of ham for me, and the others would get kaya instead, i was wondering why, i looked into the fridge then realised that there wasnt much food in the fridge. so i decided to go shopping for food. it didnt come to past because i woke up.
i'm trying to imagine that happenning to me, real life.

yesterday was a fab day,
hung ard at home, watched shows,
until like 3.30, then went to shower,
while showering, THERE WAS A BLACKOUT.
omg, i had to shower with coldwater after:(
there was no one at home except grandma.
but she was asleep.
so i was freaking out.
after 30mins to trying to on back the power,
i called daddy for help,
i tried for another 10 mins before everything came back on. -.-
after that, prepared and left for ying's house.
went to SICC for bowling and pooling and arcading.
then had dinner.
the chicken was yums.
after that, hung out ard ying's house,
went home, showered, watched videos, then slept.

♥

2009-10-24T10:07:00.002+08:00

what should i say?
nothing? idk la. serously, i'm kinda lost.
i've felt it already before,
i'll get blamed if i dont have the mood.
wtf, maybe i'll just leave.
♥

if i said i didnt miss you, i'm lying.

2009-10-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

i feel kinda retarded now.
lazy also. i have no modd to do anything or go anywhere,
not kidding, i feel like lying on my bed, enjoy life.
yesterday was a busybusy day
math lesson, then church for Cg the GT training.
it was fab. had dinner with walter and flavian,
saw angsusu there. reached home at 12 plus, slept at 1.30.
was super reluctant to wakey.
forced myself, woke up,
showered, went to sch,
marketing was okay.
JG made my day:D
be radical, not reckless.
went home after school.
i'm freaking sleepy now.
i think i'mma go to bed soon.
i'm missing out on night safari because i really got no mood to go.
i've been feeling very blahs these few days.:(
♥

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-10-22T12:15:00.006+08:00

arghs. ignore the previous post.

yesterday i brought baby to school!:D

everyone loved i except for some people whom are afraid of it.

after school, went to amk to find kris, roy, vin, elwyn, zy, jh, hs.

then after that, they went to watch tusnami. k didnt want to watch,

so we went to Coffeebean with yinggy.

did my RJ, went home, had dinner, bused to find them,

walked ard amk, went to ichiban to eat.

hung ard till 10 plus then bused home.
i had fun!

♥

if want to woo her, daringly go woo la.-.-

but dont be creepy. gosh.

everytime say you like her, then got no action. \

com'on!!

2009-10-22T09:40:00.001+08:00

i'm in a wtf mood now.
seriously.
idk why also, insecurities maybe.
i feel cheated and forgotten. wtvr la.
♥

2009-10-20T18:17:00.001+08:00

home!:D i realised i've been blogging alot.
-.- lesson today was kinda cool.
nails are chipping:(:(
sadded. i feel like sleeping early. too tired.
i'm tempted with foooooood.
i'm getting over what happenned already.
♥